I'm not sure what to write, but have the time & feel the need. Tomorrow will be the "date" that my Beloved went to be with our Lord. And at the time it was a release, but today, I don't know how I feel. All who said that time heals, LIED, because time does not. It only makes the memories fuzzy & that makes me sad.
I find myself straining to remember what his voice sounded like, what his touch felt like. Time has taken away the intense pain that felt so permanent, but there is always a vulnerable spot that will get touched by a song or phrase that will bring it all back again.
Time has helped me be open to possibilities, new adventures & directions that bring me to close doors on dreams that once was & can not be.
Time does not heal, but time has become my friend. At least for now.... Happy Homegoing Beloved, I miss you!
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